So something I've been struggling with the entire time I've been in Australia is the question of: how attached am I allowed to get? Do I completely ingratiate myself in the culture and the people here to the point where I'm bawling my eyes out when I leave and I spend my summer thinking about Australia? Or do I guard myself and my emotions to the point that I can walk away at the end with no problem? I figured it should be some sort of mixture of the two and this is what I've tried to do. And actually, I think I've been pretty successful. This is precisely why at this point in my trip I have so many mixed emotions! Quite bittersweet actually.
So at this point, I have 30 days left in Australia and a week of that is in New Zealand. Countless people have asked me how I feel about leaving Australia, if I will miss it, if I'll come back, etc. And I feel kinda bad but at this point I think I'm ready to just peace out! I miss too many people at home. I miss my mom's cooking. I miss simply getting into my car and driving and not having simple trips take hours.
Despite this, I know that at some point, when everything starts feeling normal at home again, I'm going to miss Australia. I've gotten into a routine here. I've gotten attached to the stupid buses that always let me down. I've made friends here that I will never see again once I get back to the states. Even after being here for 3 months, I still get really excited when I go into Sydney. I still stare out the window the entire time because I feel like I see something new every time. Sydney is the most fascinating, beautiful city I have ever seen and I will miss it so much! And at some point after I get home, it's going to hit me. One really bad day and I'll probably be wailing to go back to Australia. So please be patient with me. Try to understand when I talk about Australia so much that you feel like you've just spent 4 months there. And please feel free to tell me to shut up at any point.
BUT...I just have too much to look forward to this summer to keep my mind in Australia! Going to the beach with friends, pool parties at Sam and Thane's house, camping, and meeting up with ASC people at Cedar Point! Not to mention the fact that my best friend, Allie, is coming back to PBU in the fall which means my life can finally make sense again!
Basically, leaving here will be a very emotional experience but I CANNOT wait to see everyone at home <3
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